Responsibility

There is a huge sense of responsibility that comes with being the mother of a child. It is crazy sometimes how different fathers opperate. Beau and I went to an auction (which was really super fun) on Saturday with a couple friend of ours. We were drinking and having a great time and around 10, mind you we started at 5, I needed to pump and I kept thinking... "When I get home at midnight Al will be up two hours later to eat... I should probably stop drinking". Beau, on the other hand, had no such thoughts. Not that he doesnt love Al, but I just dont think men think about children in the same way. He could have stayed out all night.
Oh well, I accept. I do think to myself though, am I ever going to be able to relax enough to drink and have a good time when I go out, or am I always going to feel like this. I think he will have to be staying at Grandma's house before I could feel that way. I know as he gets older it will get better, but man this weekend it just hit me like a rock really.
I have been so bad about taking pictures lately... I will post some soon!